I've decided to start a blog. I guess to give me something to do. yes, i'm bored. but i figure i have crazy opinions on everything. we will start the 1st one about myself. I'm 35 and engaged to the man i have been with for the last 16 years. we have decided to get married now i have always wanted to get married but he has had this commitment issue and i still don't know why. but, if it aint broke don't try to fix it right. we had bad times good times and some way crazy times. he is the love of my life. now i have 2 kids one is 16 and has one more year of high school she is bitchy and smart mouthed but level headed and responsible all at the same time. and i have a son that is 13 obsessed with girls and xbox but, i guess thats pretty much every 13 year old in existence right? so current events are my wedding, we are getting married in april on our anniversary by my wonderful aunt who happens to be an ordained pastor yyaaayyy me!!! then i am planning a reception in june to celebrate with all our family and friends. the crazy thing is I have a budget of about 2000 dollars when most weddings cost around 10,000 at least so follow me as this all goes down. its gonna be stressfull and funny and crazy and everything in between thats for sure. so for the wedding we've decided to keep it small me, my boo, my kids, his mom and my friend. but, for the reception i have about 200 people to invite. he got me a beautiful engagement ring thats black gold with hot pink diamond. and my wedding colors are black white and hot pink, must be my favorite colors? I honestly have never been this excited its like the day you never thought would happen is right around the corner, i'm nervous and anxious at the same time. but why? we have been together so long already. do you really think this will change things for us? will we act the same? live the same? love the same? I can't answer any of those but i feel like this will bring us even closer than we already are.